Soulmate -

Go Fuck Your Soulmate

Ode To A Cigaret -

Most people hate them; Cigarettes and their smokers,

I don't

And since most dislike them so much,

I thought let's honor them.

Fear of Love -

We are all meant to be someone,

We are all meant to feel something,

But we'd all rather be the same.

Our feelings colide with our emotions,

We fall in love with our expectations,

And get angry and frustrated when our expectations aren't met.

How do we fall in love with this picture perfect,

Which solely excists in our mind?

How come it is so hard to let life take it's own course?

Why do we try so hard to control it?

We think we know what others feel,

We think we can see life through their eyes

Or we think we can walk in their shoes.

We believe that whatever we've been through,

Is harder and tougher.

That whatever we do is better,

Whatever we believe is firmer,

How come we are designed this way?

Programmed by the masses instead of by nature,

Why are we scared of pain and afraid of getting hurt,

How come we feel embarrased to cry, show our true emotions?

When in this life, between being born and growing up,

Where we thought to fear love?

It Hurts -

It Hurts, when somebody you fought for is not treating you the right way.

It Hurts, when somebody is not telling the truth about things.

It Hurts, when they keep doing the same shit over again.

And It Hurts, because those people will not change.

It Hurts, because you were not the first they have caused pain. 

And It Hurts, because you are not the last.

It Hurts, because I know what's she going to go through later on.

And It Hurts, that I'm unfortunately right about this. 

One thing I've learned is that people do not change.

They only change the scenery.
And that Hurts.

Contradictions Of The Warrior -

Every Warrior of the Light

has felt afraid of going into battle.

Every Warrior of the Light

has, at some time in the past, lied or betrayed someone.

Every Warrior of the Light

has trodden a path that was not his.

Every Warrior of the Light

has suffered for the most trivial of reasons.

Every Warrior of the Light

has at least once, believed he was not a Warrior of the Light.

Every Warrior of the Light

has failed in his spiritual duties.

Every Warrior of the Light

has said ‘yes’ when he wanted to say ‘no.’

Every Warrior of the Light

has hurt someone he loved.

That is why he is a Warrior of the Light, 

because he has been through all this and yet has never lost hope of being better than he is.

By Paulo Coelho

Me -

I am dreaming while I'm awake, 

A sleep while I am staring at the ceiling, 

Running with my eyes closed, 

Exhausted but full of energy.. 

My internal system is completely messed up, but I am living..

Not just alive, I am really living my life.

By Me

Official Press Photos MC Lady Bee -

I know it's been a Freaking while..

But I have been busy.

Middle of September

I shot the official press photos 

for the Lovely and Talented

Miss. MC Lady Bee

So I proudly present to you;

Photography; FrameMyKitty

Styling; Matsukii's World

The Gorgeous Smile; MC Lady Bee

Stilness -

There is a point where in the mystery of

existence contradictions meet;

where movement is not all movement

and stillness is not all stillness;

where the idea and the form,

the within and the without, are united;

where infinite becomes finite,

yet not losing its infinity.

By Rabindranath Tagore

Miguel Jontel Sure Thing -

Even when the sky comes falling

Even when the sun don't shine

I got faith in you and I

So put your pretty little hand in mine

Even when we're down to the wire baby

Even when it's do or die

We could do it baby, simple and plain

Cause this love is a sure thing

Risk -

If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right, you'll probably never do much of anything.

Nneka Heartbeat -

Lust -

Love comforteth like sunshine after rain, But lust's effect is tempest after sun; Love's gentle spring doth always fresh remain, Lust's winter comes ere summer half be done; Love surfeit's not, Lust like a glutton dies, Love is all truth, Lust full

Matsukii's World vs FrameMyKitty -

Insecurities kills Happiness

And without Happiness

There is no Joy

Last Saturday I've revived 

My Happiness

- Model: Delaney * Styling: Matsukii's World * Photographie: Me -

Pain -

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain. 

- By Jim Morrison -

Jump -

The time has come for me to take a leap

To jump and let myself fall

And embrace whatever hits me on my way down

I will accept everything that will come on my path

I will deal with it in the best manner I know

I am scared and nervous

But this is one thing I have to do

From now on will only accept the good things

If bad comes I will recognize it this time

And remove myself away from it

I deserve it and owe it to myself

It is time for me

to be one with me again

Whole as a single person

Goodbye for now. 

Phoniness -

I am sick of people trying to read all books possible and doing their best to be spiritiual. 

It all starts inside of you, not in a book. It starts with how you live your life, the choices you make, 

how you treat others. 

How can you keep fooling yourself?! Wake up.. 

There is nothing spiritual, sincere or truthful about a person who lies not only to others, but mainly to himself.

L O V E -

Acceptance, Respect, Arguments, Caring, Fighting, Kissing, Crying, Letting go, Holding on, Coming together, Understanding, Listening, Trust, Loyalty, Perseverance, Passion, Compromises.

On Hold -

There is no such thing as having a good reason

To temporarily put your life on hold

There is only a stupid reason.

In fact there is no reason at all

To put your life on hold

Live, love and get your heart broken

Then pick up the shattered pieces

and love even more fiercely

Fall, flat on your face

but get up again and walk slowly.

Breathe in deeply and taste the moments

Exhale and try new things

Feel your emotions 

and embrace your pain

But never, never ever stop and stand still. 

Waiting -

You know sometimes 

you are waiting 

for something

you know

is not going to happen

But you wait

and wait

and wait a bit longer

hoping somehow

it will happen

But it is not happening

and you fool yourself

by making excuses

why things 

simply aren't happening

It is not the heart 

that fools you

it is your mind

that does

the fooling part

The mind 

makes up all these excuses

and the heart

is sending out feelings

to convince you otherwise

That's why

we gotta learn

to listen 

listen to your heart

as it is the most honest

and only truth

Schizoïd -

Last Tuesday I learned

that I'm a schizoïd, paranoïd person.

So basically..

I am A Nutter**

It's good to get to know yourself better

Rain & Thunder -

Fairytales -

Birthdays -

Today is my Birthday..

I'm not sure yet

If I actually like Birthdays

But still

Hip Hip Hoorah 

Sun -

Dear Sun

I love you

I love your warmth on my skin

The way your light makes everything

more beautiful

Even people

I shall enjoy your presence

Until you decide to go to sleep

Then I will go to sleep with you

And shall wake up again

When you decide to rise

Dear Sun,

yes

I really do Adore you

Stars -

Chills -

Ludovico Einaudi 

Rose

Journey -

When you are with someone

and feel lonely..

Than it's time to pack your bags

and move on

More things are out there

and there is no need

to put your life on hold

as life is way too short

At times sure it will be hard

but you will always survive

control your situation
don't let it control you

Staying in a situation

where you no longer feel joy

blocks you

from actually being happy. 

by Me.

I Scream -

I Scream

You Scream

We Scream

Ice Cream! 

Listen -

You know that feeling, that you have a very important choice to make, one that will seriously effect your life, whether it's for good or for bad? And somewhere deep down inside of you, you already know what choice you should make, but it scares you? And now you're doubting between two options and instead of moving forward with your life you hold yourself back because you simply are too scared too choose? 

I have to make a choice, but I'm dead scared.. And instead of me making that choice, I'd rather put myself and my life on hold than to make that choice. I should listen to my heart more often, but I am still in the process of figuring out whether my heart is speaking or my fear. 

My First Love -

I don't know who invented high heels, but all women owe him a lot - Marilyn Monroe

Reminder -

Madness -

Love sure is mad, but hey.. So am I..

Me -

I traveled across the world

in the first place,

 to find out who I am..

In the end,

I only found out,

 Who I am not. 

Lost -

I feel like I'm lost, 

in wright and wrong,

 left or right,

up or down?

 Where do I go,

or where do I stay?

 What do I run away from,

or where do I run away to.

 Do I stay,

or do I go.

 Will it be a yes,

 or shall I say no? 

 Either way,

I am lost in myself,

 and have no idea

where to go.

Choices -

And all the choices you make in life shall always be the right ones..

Alice in Wonderland -

 Curiouser and curiouser

Nostalgia -

You can not have a better tomorrow if you keep thinking about yesterday..

Yet..I always do. 

Bali -

Such beauty over here..yet I am longing desperately for home. 

Monday -

The sun is missing again today, don't know where she went.. Rain is ticking against the windows and it is chilly outside, but that make's it a perfect day for thinking about life.. Have you ever really thought about where you're heading? Where you'll be in 10 years from now and if you are making the right choices to get to that point? This is something I've been thinking about a lot lately,

 and I will think about it some more today.

Sunday -

Millions long for immortality who do not know what to do with themselves 

on a rainy Sunday afternoon.

My Sunday was well spent.. I think I like Sundays more than I like Saturdays.. It was raining all day, but it was nice.. Like the world was taking a nice long shower.

Saturday -

I like saturdays..Especially the ones that come with no obligations.. 

Free to do nothing.. 

Today was a good "do absolutely nothing" day! 

Common Sense -

Obituary printed in the London Times - 

Interesting and sadly rather true.

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape.

He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as:

- Knowing when to come in out of the rain;

- Why the early bird gets the worm;

- Life isn't always fair;

- and maybe it was my fault.

Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge).

His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.

Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children. It declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer sun lotion or an aspirin to a student; but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.

Common Sense lost the will to live as the churches became businesses; and criminals received better treatment than their victims. Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue you for assault.

Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement. Common Sense was preceded in death, by his parents, Truth and Trust, by his wife, Discretion, by his daughter, Responsibility, and by his son, Reason.

He is survived by his 4 stepbrothers; I Know My Rights, I Want It Now, Someone Else Is To Blame, and I'm A Victim

Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone. If you still remember him, pass this on. If not, join the majority and do nothing.

With thanks to my lovely friend Yonca whom I borrowed it from.